// Sebenarnya sedih//
And depressed. Tapi cuma nk psych myself into being happy. Calling people. I feel useless. I am jobless, penniless. I need to get a job.
// I have to believe//
That there’s an office out there that wants me as much as I want them. Who knew looking for a job is a lot like looking for a guy? So many to choose from, but the ones you want don’t respond and the ones that do- you aren’t interested in.
// Expectations // projections//
#1: 2800 // 2600 + office trips 2x/year
#2: 3000 // 2500 + benefits $10 meal + $10 cab
#3: 3200 // 3000 + benefits additional off days- 14 days annual leave + 14 days extra
// Jobhunt: first impressions//
#1: Good location/ Decent pay/ Decent hours / Free weekends
#2: Good location/ Low pay/ Long hours/ Work weekends
#3: Great location/ High pay/ Long hours/ Work saturdays
Seriously, if i wasn’t as fat, I’d go for an interview as a stewardess right now. I really have nothing to lose.
// What the fuck is wrong with me?//
“Do not detest the misfortunes that befall you, for what you may detest may be the cause of your salvation and what you like mau be the cause of your ruin” -Al Hassan Al Bakri
// It sucks to give it all u have//
But get nothing in return. Im always there for my friends; but they have no time for me.
I keep on asking myself how the hell did I get here in the first place. Well; as i often do, I get lost and confused and can’t effing remember what and how I screwed up to land in this shit hole I created for myself. Thank you, and goodnight.
// How can u be so cruel?//
How could u say that to me??? Call me overly sensitive, but u cut me deep.
// Good old fashioned courting is dead. //
Boys don’t call or ask you out anymore. Is it me who’s getting less attractive by th day or is it men who no longer take the extra mile to get a girl?
a 25-ish graduate who is grappling her way through life, searching for mr.right and the impossible pursuit of happiness.
